Maybe it’s because the sun is shining but I’m feeling pretty optimistic. I want to work hard and go after the things in life that I daydream about.
It’s pretty easy to say what you want but going after it is challenging and scary. Maybe that’s why people settle, they want a life that is comfortable with low risk.
I’ve known quite a few people who want that from life. It’s easy to just go through the motions of life without stopping to really think about what you want.
I’ve always hated the idea of settling but it’s hard sometimes to have the continuous motivation and self belief to push myself as much as I should and really see how far I can go.
I remember almost 3 years ago, when I got my GCSE grades. Despite getting mostly Bs, a couple As and an A*, I wasn’t pleased. I had never challenged myself enough because I knew that I would still get by with decent grades.
With my blog I make posting schedules but never stick to them and I write down all these ideas but take months to turn them into posts. I guess I’d say I do enough to keep my blog afloat but I’m not challenging myself which is why I want to be doing 5 posts every week.
Over the years I’ve realised that I’ve been limiting myself in all aspects of my life and the result of that has been missing out on many great opportunities.
It’s a terrible feeing to have when you realise that you are the one thing standing in your own way. I’ve come to realise that unless I learn to push myself I will never truly be happy.
So I’m making a promise to myself, not to settle but to go after what I want in life, to be a hard worker, dream chaser and to know that I am capable of greatness.
Then one day I’ll be able to say that I know what it truly means to live.
Writing has been a big part of my life. I’ve kept a journal for the past 7/8 years.
When life’s been difficult for me, I didn’t know who to talk to or when I felt like I had no-one my journal felt like the most important thing to me.
I went through a time in secondary school for a few years when I was very down and unhappy. I always felt like there was no one who would really understand.
At the time I thought I needed someone but instead I found solace in putting pen to paper. Writing was my outlet.
Being 17 now, its almost scary when I look back on the things I wrote remembering the way I used to feel.
That is the theme for this month. Each week I’m going to write a piece and share it with you. It might be a poem, lyrics or just a story- sky’s the limit.
If you liked this post I hope you’ll be back next week for ‘Writers March: Week 1’.
This time last year college was so different in comparison to now. Honestly for the first 2-3 months I didn’t really like it. The main reason being that I didn’t really know anyone and the people I did know I didn’t know very well (I only knew about 4 people out of about 1000 1st years).
I remember having to spend my frees in the library, even when I had no work to do because I didn’t have anyone to hang out with. At lunches I would walk into the refectory, frantically searching for a familiar face. In general I felt like I didn’t belong and I started to regret not going to the same college as my secondary school friends.
I made a grand effort in all my classes to get to know people and make new friends. It was actually pretty fun getting to know people, I actually found it much easier getting to know guys than girls which is a little odd, as I went to an all girls secondary school.
So fast forward to 24th October 2013, so much has changed. I have lots of amazing friends, I’m enjoying all the subjects I study and I feel like I fit in.
So today in particular was a SUPER day which I will blog about in another post as I have a lot to say.
So my main group of secondary school friends and I are drifting apart. It started at the end of secondary school when I decided to go to a different college/6th form to them.
We still keep in contact and message each other every few weeks, but I have been starting to wonder whether it is a friendship worth keeping.
I’m thinking do I just leave things as they are and let us drift apart slowly but surely or do I just cut ties with them, hmmm……
Let me know your thoughts in the comments- it would be much appreciated!
First of all I’m not a big fan of finalies, they always make me sad because it means that its the end. Its as if everything that has happened was all just leading up to the final moment.
Anyway back to dance academy, It was amazing and I cried!
I thought when I had finished the episode I would have been dissatisfied but I wasn’t .
I’m guessing you won’t have seen the show before so I’ll just let you know what this seasons been about.
Its about a group of Ballet students in their senior year at a prestigious ballet school, at the end of the year, 3 of them will be offered company contracts so their is a lot of competition. Also the 3rd series has included- eating disorders,coping with death, body image, rejection, sex and relationships.
The season 3 cast l-r: Ollie, Kat, Abigail, Christian, Tara, Ben and grace.
“I always knew in another life I could fly. So that’s why in this life I dance.”- Tara Webster
Heres a link to the season 3 trailer
Watch it and let me know what you think in the comments!
I’m so lucky to have such amazing friends, they were the reason my day was so great!