I’m sitting on my bed feeling reflective listening to Wonderwall by Oasis. I haven’t really listened to the lyrics of the song before but I like it very much.
The past week has been a little strange. A couple of days ago I had a conversation with someone about what I wanted to do with my life. It was unexpected and I was taken by surprise at this persons interest. It was one of those moments in life where you can feel things changing and this time I think it is for the better.
I don’t really feel comfortable talking about myself to other people (sometimes) believe it or not, I know it might be hard to believe since I do it all the time on my blog HA! Anyway I do this thing were I answer questions with ‘I don’t know’ which nearly always means ‘I don’t want to tell you’. Its a terrible habit but I’m working on being more open with people, maybe something good will come of it.
This year my life is going to change a lot, I’m not sure on the specifics but I just know it. I’ll be honest and tell you I’m a little bit terrified. I’m not really accustomed to the spontaneity of life, I struggle to let go and let life do its thing.
Keeping with the theme of change I’m in the process of changing things here on my blog too. I want a new name that is interesting and unusual, like me. I’ve come up with a few ideas so far but turns out they weren’t as original as I thought.
When it comes to change you can either drag your heels in resistance or accept there is nothing you can do and embrace life with open arms and a (potentially fake) smile on your face.
So here’s to letting go, embracing change and being as happy as we can possibly be. In the words of aqualung ‘Good times gonna come’, I can feel it in my bones!
I think the easiest way for me to sum up 2014 would be to split it into 2 parts.
The first 6 months were the last months at college and the beginning of summer. I think I was happiest in March+April as that was the time when I was having the most fun. Towards the end I was a little sad college was ending and highly stressed about projects and exams.
In the last 6 months I feel like I have become a different person that is living a completely different life so separate from the girl I once was. I have experienced some difficult things that have changed my perspective. I have learnt that being in education made it easy not to deal with other important things in my life.
That being said it hasn’t been all bad. I feel like I’m becoming more me which is a really good thing. I’ve been reading so much more, currently I’m reading ‘The adventures of Tom Sawyer’ and it’s great. I’ve also gotten back into writing and that is something that has always been important to me. The past few months have taught me a lot.
My biggest lesson of 2014 would have to be learning to be more open and more confident in all aspects: my feelings, opinions, the way I dress and the things I write about.
This year has been interesting but here’s to 2015!
I decided to be reflective and note some of the lessons I’ve learnt over the past week.
- Just because others don’t share your point of view it doesn’t mean your feelings aren’t justifiable.
- Dismissing your feelings to avoid confrontation may seem easier initially but when you end up harbouring negativity, it’s not so good.
- If you put the same amount of effort into the subjects that you find most difficult as you do into the ones you like, greatness is possible.
- Sometimes life will be spontaneous, but you can’t control it, you just have to roll with it.
- Going to sleep in a bad mood is not good for you and should be avoided at all costs.
And that’s it!
Hope your Monday has been a good one, mine was was filled with laughter 🙂
AS exam season and a whole lot of stress.
I had a very embarrassing experience involving a guy I like, a chocolate cookie and some loose change.
Making progress with ‘Charming’ and just life in general.
Lots of birthdays and starting ‘intense’ revision for upcoming exams
The start of exam season, like January I was stressed but this time their were more exams which= more pressure!
My birthday and the month I made a declaration of the semi-romantic variety which I still regret, at least now I can laugh about it though.
End of term and the beginning of summer YAAAYYY!!!
Volunteering and a holiday off to West Sussex… “good times!”
The birth of snippetsofthislife and the start of 2nd year, this was a good month filled with great moments.
I was pretty busy and I did a lot of thinking and writing about my life but I think my favourite part was that I started getting to know a guy and I quite like him (in a MAJOR way!).
I’ve realised I’m much more confident than I used to be, I worry a lot less about how others view me, I’ve finally accepted that not everyone will adore me and their are lots of people that like me just as I am Xx
Optimism, festivities and planning for 2014
So that’s my 2013 obviously I couldn’t mention everything so I just chose some of my favourite moments.
I’m planning to do a few more end of the year posts, so look out!