Over the past week I’ve been feeling the blues. Up until yesterday I was extremely worried and stressed. It happens to me all the time so I’m used to it but it’s difficult sometimes.
I’ll often have a few consecutive days of stress and worry then suddenly I’ll have some sort of revelation whilst doing something I always do like listening to The Jezabels. It was once words from the song Beat to Beat:
“All of my things that I don’t want,
all of the things that I don’t need,
are weighing me down,
are weighing me down,
but it goes on”
Just hearing those lines changed my state of mind. I had been carrying a mental burden that was weighing me down by affecting me physically. Those words reminded me that it goes on, life is always changing. It’s impossible for me to avoid things that will get me down but more often than not these things aren’t as big a deal as they seem so I just have to keep going.
Yesterday I spent the day in Cardiff, it was only when I got home that I realised I’d forgotten all about my worries from the past week. Its surprising what a change of scenery can do to a persons state of mind.
Anyway I’m now feeling refreshed, energised and full of positivity.
On a lighter note, last week I reached 400 followers on the blog so “Thank you very much!”
I really appreciate all the support especially as I’m becoming a more confident blogger, it all feels great.
Hope your Sunday has been RAD!
Yesterday I read a blog post on inthefrow about getting back into old hobbies. It reminded that I haven’t done anything textiles/sewing related for a long time and that I don’t spend enough time writing just for fun.
Sewing is something I’ve been doing from a young age. It began with me and my sister using fabric scraps to hand sew dolls clothes then when I was 9 I joined the sewing club at school where I first learnt to hand embroider. As I got older Textiles was always a subject I enjoyed and did best in at school.
Last year in January I got my very own sewing machine and I was so happy as I had wanted one for a very long time. Fast forward to present day and I haven’t used my machine since August. The feeling I get when I’m creating something is amazing and I miss it. I already have a few things I want to make or alter I just need to get to it.
I spend more time thinking about writing than I do actually writing. I was recently inspired to start writing fiction again as I haven’t done so since secondary school. It won’t be for my blog, it’ll be for me and for fun. In terms of blog posts I have an ever-growing list of 40+ ideas but I rarely get round to actually writing them out.
Procrastination is one of the reasons I haven’t been pursuing my interests as much I as could have been. I want to be good at the things I do but I constantly worry that I won’t be (it’s a vicious circle!) and sometimes it ends up seeming better to not bother than to try and feel disappointed.
I’ve felt like that with many things in life but it’s only now when I’ve done some reflection and become consciously aware of the habit, that I am able to realise it is something I have to work on.
I want to end this post with a quote from a book by Paul Arden:
“Aim beyond what you are capable of. Try things you are incapable of. Make your vision a reality.”
Maybe it’s because the sun is shining but I’m feeling pretty optimistic. I want to work hard and go after the things in life that I daydream about.
It’s pretty easy to say what you want but going after it is challenging and scary. Maybe that’s why people settle, they want a life that is comfortable with low risk.
I’ve known quite a few people who want that from life. It’s easy to just go through the motions of life without stopping to really think about what you want.
I’ve always hated the idea of settling but it’s hard sometimes to have the continuous motivation and self belief to push myself as much as I should and really see how far I can go.
I remember almost 3 years ago, when I got my GCSE grades. Despite getting mostly Bs, a couple As and an A*, I wasn’t pleased. I had never challenged myself enough because I knew that I would still get by with decent grades.
With my blog I make posting schedules but never stick to them and I write down all these ideas but take months to turn them into posts. I guess I’d say I do enough to keep my blog afloat but I’m not challenging myself which is why I want to be doing 5 posts every week.
Over the years I’ve realised that I’ve been limiting myself in all aspects of my life and the result of that has been missing out on many great opportunities.
It’s a terrible feeing to have when you realise that you are the one thing standing in your own way. I’ve come to realise that unless I learn to push myself I will never truly be happy.
So I’m making a promise to myself, not to settle but to go after what I want in life, to be a hard worker, dream chaser and to know that I am capable of greatness.
Then one day I’ll be able to say that I know what it truly means to live.
I would sum up March with the word progress.
In all aspects of my life I feel like I have made progress and it feels good. I haven’t gone from 1-100 which is what I used to try and do, instead I’ve learnt to take things slowly, step by step. I’ve had a few set backs but I’m handling them much better than I used to.
I’ve started exercising regularly, filling my mind with positivity and keeping busy.
I won’t go into too much detail as I have a separate post coming soon all about R&R.
Living in the moment
There was a quote from a book I read last year that went something like ‘We shouldn’t always wish to be somewhere we are not’ it then went on to say that we should enjoy the moments that we are in because they’ll pass us by.
It’s easy to wake up and go to school or work but wish you were somewhere else. I can guarantee everyone has done that at least once, me included.
However instead of wishing yourself elsewhere how about live in the moment you are in, make it amazing so that when its over you can say you didn’t let those minutes/hours pass you by. If someone told me this a few months ago I would have said that I’ve tried and it isn’t working (obviously forgetting Thomas Edison’s wise words) and that maybe it doesn’t work for everyone. Funny how things turn around though.
Here are 2 scenarios that I’ve had in my life:
A. You have to go to class whilst all your friends have frees for the rest of the day. You gaze out of the window wishing you were with your friends instead willing for the hour to be over so you can join them.
How about paying attention and making use of the next 60 minutes to learn as much as you possibly can.
B. You are laying in bed with Wonderwall by Oasis playing in the background. You wish that you were out somewhere having fun but instead just wish for the day to be over so you can (hopefully) start fresh tomorrow.
First up ‘stop the music’ now realise that even though your day has gotten off to a crappy start by choosing to live in the moment you could possibly have the best day ever.
Living in the moment isn’t an easy habit to adopt but like most things it just takes practise.
So I ‘ll begin by saying ‘HAPPY NEW YEAR!’
I spent my new years eve out with some of my oldest friends and I had a great night, minus the part where some guy spilt the majority of his pint on my legs and boots.
Towards the end of last year I wrote 3 words on a piece of paper, drew a box around them, tore around it then stuck it on my wall.
Every time I’m sat at my desk, I look up and see those 3 words and my mind starts thinking about what they mean.
The 3 words were ‘Beyond the box’.
Here is a little piece from my journal:
‘In life there are opportunities to do things outside of your box, your comfort zone and everything that you know. Each time you do it’s like sticking a push pin beyond your box. The more you do things outside of your comfort zone (the box), the more likely that become part of it and your box expands. The idea is to live your life doing things beyond the box as much as you can. It can be small or big, it doesn’t matter.
Everything beyond the box is unknown territory or the things you are too scared to do. You just need a little courage.’
So I haven’t posted in a while and I feel so terrible about it. I started this post a few days ago and finally got round to completing it today. Basically its just advice I’m giving myself for my 2nd year of A-levels but I think it’s quite useful for anyone in still in education.
Begin as you mean to go on
Get into a routine early on in the year so that you don’t get stressed round exam season. For me that means going over my notes from the lesson at least every week.
Set realistic goals
I’m guilty of setting unrealistic goals, for example sometimes I think I will never be happy with my grades unless they are all As and A*s. I’m not saying you shouldn’t aim high because you should but aiming too high often means your just setting yourself up for disappointment. So for my A-levels I’m aiming for BCC at least, which is attainable as long as I work hard and stay focused.
For me they are just a way of staying motivated. When I’m feeling not so great or even just a little lazy I think of some wise words by Ralph Waldo Emerson:
‘Nothing great was ever achieved without enthusiasm’
Avoid making comparisons
In my 1st year maths class I used to compare myself to all the other guys in the class (there was only one other girl). I would make comparisons daily thinking that I must be so stupid because I wasn’t as smart as they were. So I think it’s important to focus on yourself and how you can do better for you.
Spend your frees wisely
So I have 4 frees every week and I spend them all hanging out with friends and having fun. What I should do is dedicate at least 1 of the frees to getting work done, that way I wont have as much to do at home.
I hope you found this post useful or at least a little interesting!