Yesterday I met a man who was typing away with books at his side and I felt compelled to talk to him.I thought I’d never seen before but he told me I must have forgotten him as he recognised my face.
I discovered that we both had a love to read and write which made for an interesting conversation. “I have a blog” I said. He seemed intrigued; he wanted to know more so I explained a little but held back on the web address.
There is something quite terrifying about sharing my blog at times. My blog is very honest but in person I often don’t share quite so much.
Having someone read the personal things I’ve written that I probably wouldn’t tell them face to face is something I fear. I’m the kind of person that instinctively tries to portray the image of ‘the girl who has it together’ in real life whereas online I guess it’s easier to just let go.
Since I’ve started getting better from depression one of my goals has been to be more open in real life. I’m learning that it’s okay to feel whatever I feel and express it. It’s easy to be myself with strangers though because they’ve never known me to be anything more or less.
So that is why I spent quite some time talking to the man I met yesterday and allowed him to get to know me. Sharing just enough that he’d want to know more.
This particular outfit almost didn’t make the blog because the sun messed it up. However after some editing it turned out alright.
The cardigan is from h&m for just £7.99 which is awesome, it’s really light and the length of it is perfect. The cami and jeans are old essentials that make up some of my best outfits. What I like about this outfit is that I looked good and felt confident. Never underestimate the power of the right clothing combination.
These past few days I’ve been trying to reconnect with some of my old college friends as since we all finished last summer I have been pretty distant. As I’ve mentioned here and there over the past couple of months, last year my mental health was in terrible condition. I spent a lot of time alone because I didn’t really want people to see me as I was.
Anyway the point is that things are very different now and I feel a happiness I don’t think I’ve ever felt before. I laugh every single day and I’m so grateful. Each day is full of little victories and I am the best I have ever been.
The past week has been filled with ups, downs. From post-work margaritas with a colleague to bursting into tears over excessive stress, anxiety and lack of sleep to a 1st birthday and making plans with a friend I haven’t seen for way too long.
Anyway, I thought I’d share a photo, that represents me excellently because yesterday at work I was reminded of this habit I have of sometimes not looking people in the eye. I feel uncomfortable making eye-contact because I feel like my eyes give away how I’m feeling and sometimes I don’t want people to know. Also my eyes are the window to my soul and not every Tom, Dick and Harry is getting that privilege!
Images via Pinterest
I am loving the 70’s trend at the moment. Not that I’ve jumped on the bandwagon but just because I like clothes. I was browsing through Pinterest looking at outfits from the 70’s and thought I ought to share some of the things I came across.
So, what do you think of the 70’s trend revival?
Maybe it’s because the sun is shining but I’m feeling pretty optimistic. I want to work hard and go after the things in life that I daydream about.
It’s pretty easy to say what you want but going after it is challenging and scary. Maybe that’s why people settle, they want a life that is comfortable with low risk.
I’ve known quite a few people who want that from life. It’s easy to just go through the motions of life without stopping to really think about what you want.
I’ve always hated the idea of settling but it’s hard sometimes to have the continuous motivation and self belief to push myself as much as I should and really see how far I can go.
I remember almost 3 years ago, when I got my GCSE grades. Despite getting mostly Bs, a couple As and an A*, I wasn’t pleased. I had never challenged myself enough because I knew that I would still get by with decent grades.
With my blog I make posting schedules but never stick to them and I write down all these ideas but take months to turn them into posts. I guess I’d say I do enough to keep my blog afloat but I’m not challenging myself which is why I want to be doing 5 posts every week.
Over the years I’ve realised that I’ve been limiting myself in all aspects of my life and the result of that has been missing out on many great opportunities.
It’s a terrible feeing to have when you realise that you are the one thing standing in your own way. I’ve come to realise that unless I learn to push myself I will never truly be happy.
So I’m making a promise to myself, not to settle but to go after what I want in life, to be a hard worker, dream chaser and to know that I am capable of greatness.
Then one day I’ll be able to say that I know what it truly means to live.
The book I am currently reading is The power of habit by Charles Duhigg. I tweeted about Duhiggs book, a couple of days ago and he replied which was pretty cool.
I think these books minus the one on the bottom left are perfect for the place I am currently at in my life. I’m letting go of the past starting to work towards the life that I want for myself.
The first day I began the power of habit I learnt about the habit loop (that consists of cue, routine and reward). The book said that in order to change a habit you only need to change the routine.
I think the reason why I like the book so much is that I can apply the things I have learnt to my own life which actually makes it worth reading.
I’d love to know what you’ve been reading lately, whether it’s a book or blog.
So these are my little bags.
They were all very inexpensive with prices ranging from £3.50-£5.99.
I still haven’t figured out how I’ll sign off at the end of my posts, how about…