I’ve had this blog for about 21 months now and it has been amazing. I’ve improved so much from since I started and I have much more confidence to post about the things that really matter to me instead of trying to fit a niche.
Over the past few months I’ve been thinking about the kind of blog I want and the type of content I want to be creating. I guess you could say I’ve grown up a little since Snippets of this Life began and I feel like a whole new person in comparison to who I was when I started this blog in 2013. My original plan was to change the name of this blog and the type of content I was posting but then I realised that it wouldn’t feel right because that would mean destroying what I’ve created over the past 21 months.
I’ve decided to start afresh with a new blog called ‘Jimi Fuchsia’ and it is going to be me sharing outfits, advice and ideas on life. I’m a little bit terrified because I’ll be starting with a blank slate but it is exciting because it means I can start from scratch and create something beautiful which is the best feeling.
I won’t be deleting this blog, I’ll leave it floating in the blogosphere (just like my previous blog) but this is my last ever post here. I’ll be starting my new blog later on this month and I’m so excited but I am a little sad to be ending this one so I guess it’s bitter sweet.
Lastly, I want to thank you for your reading my blog and I’m happy you liked it.
A few weeks ago I wrote something about how hard it can be to say goodbye, unfortunately I have no idea what became of that piece of paper. Luckily I haven’t completely forgotten it.
It ended with something about how hard it is to say the words goodbye, sometimes it’s so difficult that you just don’t say it at all. Instead you say ‘see you later’ with a heavy heart…
Over the past week I’ve been feeling the blues. Up until yesterday I was extremely worried and stressed. It happens to me all the time so I’m used to it but it’s difficult sometimes.
I’ll often have a few consecutive days of stress and worry then suddenly I’ll have some sort of revelation whilst doing something I always do like listening to The Jezabels. It was once words from the song Beat to Beat:
“All of my things that I don’t want,
all of the things that I don’t need,
are weighing me down,
are weighing me down,
but it goes on”
Just hearing those lines changed my state of mind. I had been carrying a mental burden that was weighing me down by affecting me physically. Those words reminded me that it goes on, life is always changing. It’s impossible for me to avoid things that will get me down but more often than not these things aren’t as big a deal as they seem so I just have to keep going.
Yesterday I spent the day in Cardiff, it was only when I got home that I realised I’d forgotten all about my worries from the past week. Its surprising what a change of scenery can do to a persons state of mind.
Anyway I’m now feeling refreshed, energised and full of positivity.
On a lighter note, last week I reached 400 followers on the blog so “Thank you very much!”
I really appreciate all the support especially as I’m becoming a more confident blogger, it all feels great.
Hope your Sunday has been RAD!
Yesterday I met a man who was typing away with books at his side and I felt compelled to talk to him.I thought I’d never seen before but he told me I must have forgotten him as he recognised my face.
I discovered that we both had a love to read and write which made for an interesting conversation. “I have a blog” I said. He seemed intrigued; he wanted to know more so I explained a little but held back on the web address.
There is something quite terrifying about sharing my blog at times. My blog is very honest but in person I often don’t share quite so much.
Having someone read the personal things I’ve written that I probably wouldn’t tell them face to face is something I fear. I’m the kind of person that instinctively tries to portray the image of ‘the girl who has it together’ in real life whereas online I guess it’s easier to just let go.
Since I’ve started getting better from depression one of my goals has been to be more open in real life. I’m learning that it’s okay to feel whatever I feel and express it. It’s easy to be myself with strangers though because they’ve never known me to be anything more or less.
So that is why I spent quite some time talking to the man I met yesterday and allowed him to get to know me. Sharing just enough that he’d want to know more.
The past week has been filled with ups, downs. From post-work margaritas with a colleague to bursting into tears over excessive stress, anxiety and lack of sleep to a 1st birthday and making plans with a friend I haven’t seen for way too long.
Anyway, I thought I’d share a photo, that represents me excellently because yesterday at work I was reminded of this habit I have of sometimes not looking people in the eye. I feel uncomfortable making eye-contact because I feel like my eyes give away how I’m feeling and sometimes I don’t want people to know. Also my eyes are the window to my soul and not every Tom, Dick and Harry is getting that privilege!
Maybe it’s because the sun is shining but I’m feeling pretty optimistic. I want to work hard and go after the things in life that I daydream about.
It’s pretty easy to say what you want but going after it is challenging and scary. Maybe that’s why people settle, they want a life that is comfortable with low risk.
I’ve known quite a few people who want that from life. It’s easy to just go through the motions of life without stopping to really think about what you want.
I’ve always hated the idea of settling but it’s hard sometimes to have the continuous motivation and self belief to push myself as much as I should and really see how far I can go.
I remember almost 3 years ago, when I got my GCSE grades. Despite getting mostly Bs, a couple As and an A*, I wasn’t pleased. I had never challenged myself enough because I knew that I would still get by with decent grades.
With my blog I make posting schedules but never stick to them and I write down all these ideas but take months to turn them into posts. I guess I’d say I do enough to keep my blog afloat but I’m not challenging myself which is why I want to be doing 5 posts every week.
Over the years I’ve realised that I’ve been limiting myself in all aspects of my life and the result of that has been missing out on many great opportunities.
It’s a terrible feeing to have when you realise that you are the one thing standing in your own way. I’ve come to realise that unless I learn to push myself I will never truly be happy.
So I’m making a promise to myself, not to settle but to go after what I want in life, to be a hard worker, dream chaser and to know that I am capable of greatness.
Then one day I’ll be able to say that I know what it truly means to live.
So I have decide that lmg is no more.
I’ve decided to change my name to Jimi Fuchsia as I think it sounds so much better and suits me way more.
Jimi (or Jimmy) is actually one of my nicknames. It was given to me by my Dad randomly a couple of years ago and it used to annoy me but I’ve grown to like it.
Fuchsia is one of my favourite colours and I thought it was a good surname for my new alias.
You may be wondering why I don’t just use my real name instead of a made up one but I’ve never really blogged as Gemela (my real name) before and I don’t really want to.
So I’ll no longer be signing off my posts with XO lmg, I haven’t yet decided how I’ll end my posts now. Maybe J.F or Miss Fuchsia (cah-yoot!), so many possibilities.
I hope you all had a good Easter, if your into it!
Bye for now,
I would sum up March with the word progress.
In all aspects of my life I feel like I have made progress and it feels good. I haven’t gone from 1-100 which is what I used to try and do, instead I’ve learnt to take things slowly, step by step. I’ve had a few set backs but I’m handling them much better than I used to.
I’ve started exercising regularly, filling my mind with positivity and keeping busy.
I won’t go into too much detail as I have a separate post coming soon all about R&R.